still taking it easy!

A friend stumbled across my blog tonight (hi, Jen! ) and I realized that I hadn't updated it in awhile and probably should!

We had our 2nd ultrasound on Thursday and everything still looks good!! (we saw the heartbeat flicker!!!). I've got a subplacental collection which pretty much means that the embryo borough into an artery and created a hematoma which is what has been causing the spotting/bleeding. It's nothing to worry about (unless the spotting changes to bleeding) and should hopefully disappear within 4 to 6 weeks but I've still got to take it easy so I'm on 'light duty'! No lifting over 10 pounds an only light exercise if any I'm actually leaning towards none!! Laying on the couch and knitting/reading/watching TV has become a favorite past time of mine over this past week! I've spend the last 2 days on the couch and my index finger on my right hand is actually hurting from so much knitting!! At least I've got the dishcloths made for Easter Dinner! (I hope to get to post some pictures tomorrow but we'll see how I feel!)

I'm glad we have our netflix subscription - I have a feeling I'm going to be using it a lot in the next few months! Today alone I watched: Bring It On (a guilty pleasure of mine!!), Bring It On: All Or Nothing (my newest guilty pleasure - i just LOVE Hayden Panettiere), Posiden (fair at best), pieces of Erin Brocovitch, SuperSize Me and Friday!!! I'm going to be a pop culture expert before I know it!!

Anyway... it's late and I should be in bed... even though I've spend the day doing nothing, I'm getting pretty tired. Chris is out with friends this evening so I get to sleep in peace - at least until he comes in and wakes the dog!

Still bleeding and sick of it.

Just when I thought the spotting had stopped last night, it picked back up and is almost like the beginning of my period. I didn't sleep well last night - I'm sure it was partially because of the spotting/bleeding and partially because of the worry. I'm so tired today and think that I'm going to just commit myself to the couch today and take it easy. I weigh myself every morning and am down 1.5 pounds from yesterday so I'm wondering if this blood had just collected and is now dissipating and that's what's caused the increased flow and "weight loss". I just don't know. This is so frustrating. I was just reading something online about corpus luteal cyst rupture and apparently, there can be more blood than I would have expected so I guess I'll just take it easy and wait till my appointment on Thursday to see what's going on. I really hope this stops soon. I'm getting really tired of worrying.

Anxiety and relief.

I've been trying to post since Friday and haven't been successful so I'll briefly summarize and if I ever get Friday's post to be accepted, you can read it then!!

I've been having one h-ll of a week. We went for our first ultrasound on Thursday and everything looked good - couldn't see the heartbeat but we didn't expect it since it was so early. Well, that night I had this tremendous (gas-like) pain and started spotting bright red no more than a half hour after that. Of course, I thought the worst. Got in for an appointment on Friday morning while hubby was having his wisdom tooth pulled and they said that nothing had changed (which made me feel a bit better) and ordered bloodwork. Vegged on the couch with hubby most of the weekend and was feeling better and then it happened last night again! The pain wasn't as bad this time and the spotting wasn't as bright but I still had a BAD feeling. I called my dr.s office this morning for the results of the blood work and my beta looks great - over 8,000 now - and progesterone does too - 36.67 so I'm very relieved by that. The nurse said that there was some fluid in my uterus that was unrelated to the pregnancy and could be from a corpus luteum cyst that ruptured on Thursday just before my ultrasound. Chris thought this could be the reason but nobody at the doctor's office had ever suggested it before now! Can you believe it?!?! You would think that with my history of miscarriage they would've let me know a little something like the fact that I may end up bleeding and it's nothing to worry about!!

Anyway... the nurse told me to take it easy until the appointment on Thursday so that is exactly what I'm planning on doing. I'm off to make myself some lunch and then read a book that's overdue from the library so I can have hubby return it for me tomorrow (taking it easy, remember! What a great excuse for hubby help!)

Keeping my fingers crossed that everything goes smoothly this time!

Bleeding again.

Chris and I had our first ultrasound today and my fears were put to ease a bit (but not completely). When we came home, I put away the groceries and took a nap. When I woke, I had a lot of cramping like I had to go to the bathroom - I had a BIG salad for lunch and didn't think much of it - but shortly thereafter, I started bleeding. During the ultrasound, the doctor said I had a corpus luteum cyst that had just ruptured (I had *that* pain as I was sitting pants-less waiting for him) and that I may feel bloated and have some discomfort from it for 24 hours or so. Of course, when I started bleeding, I assumed that I was miscarrying but Chris wondered if it couldn't be from the cyst rupturing. You would think that would've been a possible outcome that my doctor would have made me aware of but he was very late and rushed so perhaps he forgot? He showed us the fluid from the rupture on the ultrasound. Could that be the blood? I've been looking online and have seen more than one article saying that corpus luteum cyst rupture can be associated with bleeding but I still don't have a good feeling about this. Chris is going in for his wisdom tooth tomorrow at 9:50 so I'm going to call my doctor's office first thing when they open and see if they can get me in for another ultrasound in the morning to see what's going on.

Please pray that this little one will hang on - I don't want to have to go through this again.

First ultrasound later today

Well, this afternoon we have our first ultrasound for this pregnancy. You would think that I would be very excited about this but I've got a really bad feeling. Yesterday morning after Chris went to work and I feel back to sleep, I had a dream (three separate ones, actually) that I was spotting and miscarrying. I've had a dream with every miscarriage that I've had so of course, I'm convinced that this pregnancy won't make it either. On top of that, my temps have started to drop which is never a good sign for me. They're not low enough for me to be 100% convinced that I'm miscarrying but I'm really afraid that this won't end the way I hoped. I've always tried to deny my gut instincts in the past but they always seem to be right - except for the fact that I didn't think I was pregnant this time. Perhaps this pregnancy has got my instincts all messed up? I sure hope so because I really want to meet this baby!

Please keep us in your prayers if that's your thing - we need all the help we can get!

Believe it or not, we did it!

Well, despite all of my doubts, I had my blood work done today and the beta was positive - I'm pregnant! I can't believe it!! I'm so excited and at the same time cautious. I've got to go for repeat blood work in 48 hours which would be Thursday morning to make sure my levels are increasing appropriately.

Chris and I were on our way out to dinner with his brother, sister-in-law and some others when the doctor's office finally called with the results. They were in a meeting and couldn't get back to me till 5:45 or so. Luckily, I have our phones set to call my cell phone as well as the home phone so I got took the call as Chris drove. I was shocked when the nurse told me the beta was positive and gave Chris the thumbs up even though he had no idea what it was for - up until yesterday, I was positive that I wasn't pregnant. She said my beta was 151 (low but it's very early) and progesterone was 33 - both very good! I'm headed to fertility friend right now to record my numbers and compare them to my last pregnancy! (probably shouldn't compare the two but can't help it!) Anyway, by now I'm sure I'm just rambling on but I really am excited! (did I mention that yet?)

Let's pray this one sticks!
Krista

Daylight Savings Time Strikes Again!!

Well... this morning I didn't get out of bed until 9:00 which is WAY late for me! I felt pretty much behind the whole day but I've managed to get most of my routines completed. Plus, Chris is out for darts this evening so I've got the house to myself. Man, do I LOVE Mondays sometimes!!

We had a BEAUTIFUL day here (I think the high was 53!) that made me very anxious for spring!! Winston and I went for a nice walk and he's sleeping at my feet under the desk as I type! Sleeping puppy is my favorite puppy!!

On Saturday, I went to a Holistic Healing Benefit at the Goggleworks in Reading. I got myself a beautiful stand of carnelian, a large blue and purple fluorite and a small garnet in some other type of rock from Alaska! I also had a channeled reading that was definitely not what I expected but completely amazing!

I took an HPT this morning because I'm on CD31 and haven't seen AF yet. I had some spotting Wednesday, Thursday and Saturday of last week which I assumed was the start of AF but she's not here yet. I assumed that the progesterone that I'm taking was keeping her at bay but figured I'd take a test anyway. I don't really know why since I'm going in for blood work tomorrow but anyway... after waiting the five minutes, there was a VERY faint positive - I mean, like, I could have just been looking at the strip too hard - that's how faint it was. I'm not getting my hopes up because our timing wasn't very good this month but I suppose it is still possible. Geuss I'd better wait for the blood test tomorrow so I don't go getting myself all in a tizzy!!!

I'm looking forward to doing some scrapbooking this evening. Heroes isn't on tonight (I am SO BUMMED ABOUT THAT) so I don't need to actually *watch* what is on TV tonight - I can just listen to it while scrapping. I worked on my afghan yesterday and got all of the panels crocheted together and started the boarder. I'm really getting excited about finishing it!

Oh well... I supposed I should get to the basement to put up the accent lights that I bought and then it's onto scrapping!
Have a beautiful evening!
Krista

I've never been much for art but...

but these pavement chalk drawings will blow your mind!!


My brother-in-law just sent me an e-mail (or at least, I just got to read it!) about this amazing artist who works in chalks and sidewalk! His name is Julian Beever and his website highlights some of his amazing works. The depth and reality of these chalk drawings is absolutely amazing and it's really worth a look!