Bleeding again.

Chris and I had our first ultrasound today and my fears were put to ease a bit (but not completely). When we came home, I put away the groceries and took a nap. When I woke, I had a lot of cramping like I had to go to the bathroom - I had a BIG salad for lunch and didn't think much of it - but shortly thereafter, I started bleeding. During the ultrasound, the doctor said I had a corpus luteum cyst that had just ruptured (I had *that* pain as I was sitting pants-less waiting for him) and that I may feel bloated and have some discomfort from it for 24 hours or so. Of course, when I started bleeding, I assumed that I was miscarrying but Chris wondered if it couldn't be from the cyst rupturing. You would think that would've been a possible outcome that my doctor would have made me aware of but he was very late and rushed so perhaps he forgot? He showed us the fluid from the rupture on the ultrasound. Could that be the blood? I've been looking online and have seen more than one article saying that corpus luteum cyst rupture can be associated with bleeding but I still don't have a good feeling about this. Chris is going in for his wisdom tooth tomorrow at 9:50 so I'm going to call my doctor's office first thing when they open and see if they can get me in for another ultrasound in the morning to see what's going on.

Please pray that this little one will hang on - I don't want to have to go through this again.

First ultrasound later today

Well, this afternoon we have our first ultrasound for this pregnancy. You would think that I would be very excited about this but I've got a really bad feeling. Yesterday morning after Chris went to work and I feel back to sleep, I had a dream (three separate ones, actually) that I was spotting and miscarrying. I've had a dream with every miscarriage that I've had so of course, I'm convinced that this pregnancy won't make it either. On top of that, my temps have started to drop which is never a good sign for me. They're not low enough for me to be 100% convinced that I'm miscarrying but I'm really afraid that this won't end the way I hoped. I've always tried to deny my gut instincts in the past but they always seem to be right - except for the fact that I didn't think I was pregnant this time. Perhaps this pregnancy has got my instincts all messed up? I sure hope so because I really want to meet this baby!

Please keep us in your prayers if that's your thing - we need all the help we can get!